It's such a pain watchin my favorite 'idiot box' these days. It's just loaded with crap all day long! Nobody can't stop talking about Bolante and Dela Paz who are obviously guilty but the government isn't doing something about it other than their so-called investigation. F*ck due process in cases like this! They are the reason why people commit crime cause of poverty. The Senate is just one big stage where everybody is acting out, pretending they're doing something in front of the media. And then there's this senate coup d' etat they're talking about, which make them look like a bunch of elementary school students fighting over who is smarter. Having the faces of everyone involved, plastered in every channel makes me wanna gag.
I'm plain numb to everything, almost indifferent. But who can blame me? Being bombarded with things like recession everywhere, corruption, crime, war, and a whole lot more on a daily basis is just too much! I need a break, but it seems like TV is no fun anymore. I hope they allot a day for good news alone, cause people are sick and tired of hearing bad things happening all the time.
11.20.2008
Hamasaki Heaven.
I'm currently hooked with Ayumi Hamasaki's "Heaven". When I heard this song, I kept on thinking where I heard it first cause I can't seem to remember. It turns out, it was the theme song of "Shinobi, Heart Under Blade", a Japanese movie I watched not so long ago. Yukie Nakama played the lead girl here and she's also my favorite Japanese actress. I first saw her in "The Ring", then I watched her in Tokyo Wankei (again, a personal favorite) where she played a 'Zainichi Kankokujin' (how can I forget?). I even tediously downloaded all of Gokusen cause she's in it.
You can go check out this song here, I'm sure you guys will like it!
http://www.imeem.com/ska8boi/video/iNVYr41r/heaven_ayumi_hamasaki_music_video/
Ayumi is such a talented singer, some would even say she's the best in Japan. So I hate it when others say she's too old cause good music doesn't come with age. I totally dig her voice! To me, it's like a lullabye... soft, calm and soothing, doing something more than just putting me to sleep!
You can go check out this song here, I'm sure you guys will like it!
http://www.imeem.com/ska8boi/video/iNVYr41r/heaven_ayumi_hamasaki_music_video/
Ayumi is such a talented singer, some would even say she's the best in Japan. So I hate it when others say she's too old cause good music doesn't come with age. I totally dig her voice! To me, it's like a lullabye... soft, calm and soothing, doing something more than just putting me to sleep!
Love Defined
What does love mean to me. The dictionaries meaning is to have a strong attachment induced by that which delights or commands admiration, pre-eminent kindness, a devotion to another person, of deep affection and tenderness …The only way for us to truly understand the definition on love is to present you with my current situation. I’m in love, yes and it hit me like an avalanche. I never expected it to happen; all I wanted was a bit of change in my life. What a drastic change! He told me for the first time he loved me, they were right to say that missing each other is a test of love; I get so emotional sometimes and I started to cry, why? cause no one has made me feel this wanted, needed and loved. Love is all about sharing, understanding and allowing someone into your “personal space” of your heart, I know it does not always work out this way. Love is about sacrifice and compromise. I myself gave up on love, was tired of chasing it and not finding what I desired so much and in the end, it found me in the most unexpected place. And why I chose to fall in love, even though it’s been so difficult now, with him a million miles away, the answer is quiet simple, and the heart does not ask how to feel. The heart was not meant to wither away and by allowing one to open up ones heart to another, it’s the most splendid feeling of all. What would the purpose of ones existence be without love and appreciation, without sharing your sorrows and pleasures with, without having the opportunity to express yourself in more ways than one. I know love and relationships can be difficult, but I look at it like a business, if you don’t work at it, you will not succeed. There were times when I thought, to hell with this, why let yourself feel all these need and desire, when you don’t know whether it will succeed or not, but then I look within and found that once you start loving yourself, others will notice and feel and love will soon come knocking at your door …wait, I’m not yet done. Whether my present relationship is only for us to be together so that we can give each other support and understanding, to be each other pillars of strength, to be there for each other when life just gets too much or for some other deeper more meaningful reason, this I can’t answer. Our paths have crossed for a reason, but what lies ahead, well, no one can say. You never loose by loving, you only loose by holding back, really. I have noticed one major difference in myself and the way I love now, compared to the way I did. You know when you're younger, you think you’ll live forever and you think that when you have someone in your life, you feel as if you will never feel about another person the way you feel about that specific person that very moment and when your paths divide you feel like your whole world is going to fall apart, you promise yourself not to allow love to ever knock on your door and what happens, the heart heals and you fall in love all over again. I’m not saying I fall in love with each and every guy I meet, NO!, to me it’s a special bond and my degree of love for each is different in a way. I can honestly say that right now, my love is more mature, we have a greater understanding of each others needs, wants and desires. We basically are ready to accept each other with our lives. I am basically at a stage in my life where I feel I need to share my life and my love with someone. I’ll end off by saying: ‘To love is to admire with heart, to admire is to love with the mind”.So there you have it, my definition on this phenomenal factor called love, a question no human being can ever define properly, only accept it and learn from it as life goes on.
Facts about blogging...
I'm not a total newbie when it comes to blogging and I'm currently maintaining a humble friendster blog. I think, I just need to expand my horizon, having another venue for writing down my thoughts.
I have a lot of things goin on in my head and I wish to put that into words. Someday when I'm old (if this is not yet obsolete by then^^ ), I would love to read all my blogs and remember vividly how I lived my life. It may not be a big thing but the way I look at this, it's some sort of an achievement in my part.
I have a lot of things goin on in my head and I wish to put that into words. Someday when I'm old (if this is not yet obsolete by then^^ ), I would love to read all my blogs and remember vividly how I lived my life. It may not be a big thing but the way I look at this, it's some sort of an achievement in my part.
11.19.2008
Ramyeon fix gone bad?!
Earlier today, I was craving for something hot and spicy. After a strenuous workout on an empty stomach, I craved for something hot to warm me up. It's really hot these days and eating a bowl of piping hot soup seems a bit far-out but I still thought of getting my ramyeon fix, so I went to the grocery and got a pack of Ramyeon.
I felt really hungry as soon as I open the door home, so I immediately boiled water and excitedly waited till it's about time to put the noodles in. It's done in less than 8 minutes, then I brought out some familiar chopsticks and started eating. While I'm in the middle of sipping the hot soup and chewing on the noodles, I examined the wrapper and saw something weird. The expiration date looked different! It's as if someone erased the original date and printed another one. Judging from the ink smear evident in the wrapper, I felt suspicious. The prior date is still embossed while there's a newly printed one on the right side. Then I remembered reading from a friend's blog about expired korean goods here in the Phil.. and this might just be the perfect example. Read on http://www.buhaykorea.com/2008/10/16/expired-korean-products-in-the-philippines/
My bowl was already half-empty before I realized the scary fact. I really regret buying that ramyeon cause I'm now nursing an upset stomach, and who knows what more will I get from eating a probably expired ramyeon.
I felt really hungry as soon as I open the door home, so I immediately boiled water and excitedly waited till it's about time to put the noodles in. It's done in less than 8 minutes, then I brought out some familiar chopsticks and started eating. While I'm in the middle of sipping the hot soup and chewing on the noodles, I examined the wrapper and saw something weird. The expiration date looked different! It's as if someone erased the original date and printed another one. Judging from the ink smear evident in the wrapper, I felt suspicious. The prior date is still embossed while there's a newly printed one on the right side. Then I remembered reading from a friend's blog about expired korean goods here in the Phil.. and this might just be the perfect example. Read on http://www.buhaykorea.com/2008/10/16/expired-korean-products-in-the-philippines/
My bowl was already half-empty before I realized the scary fact. I really regret buying that ramyeon cause I'm now nursing an upset stomach, and who knows what more will I get from eating a probably expired ramyeon.
11.18.2008
The Notebook (2nd round)
Just finished watching "The Notebook" and eventhough it was my 2nd time, it was still worthwhile. It's probably not the best movie I have ever seen but it scores high in my list.
The story is predictable and even sharing the same concept with couple other movies. But there's something extraordinary about it. I guess it's the proven and tested familiar storyline (rich girl meets poor boy) which all people can relate, made more vivid and moving. But that's not all... The places where the scenes were shot are all beautiful. So beautiful that I totally agree when Allison said, "Like a dream". I also admire how they came up with the music that accompanied each and every scene... It's very moving.
I can go on and on with the things I love about this movie. But the thing that captivated me the most is the script. I think it's well thought of. Especially the part where Noah said, " So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this every day. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day. " Isn't that the sweetest line ever?
All of this wouldn't really matter if not for the people who played them. Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams cleary make a good pair (reel/real life). They look so good together that my knees feel limp whenever they kiss, so I'm not surprised they even won an award for it! ^^
Check this video out if you got a few minutes to kill...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTLDLWhgV1c
11.17.2008
A view on Assisted Suicide..
Endless controversy hit Oregon when they made a law called Death With Dignity Act of 1994 and it was all over the papers a few years back. I happen to brush on this topic while making a special report back in college where I'm taking up a 5 yr medical course. I actually forgot all about it till Washington recently passed a similar law and therefore, stirring similar controversy again in all parts of U.S. This particular law is all about helping terminally ill patients die with the assistance of a doctor or what is now called assisted suicide.
I searched Wiki for a narrative description about this law to give a better insight, and so it says:
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" Under the law, a capable adult who has been diagnosed by a physician with a terminal illness that will kill them within six months may request in writing, from his or her physician, a prescription for a lethal dose of medication for the purpose of ending the patient's life. Use of the law is voluntary and the patient must initiate the request. Any physician, pharmacist or healthcare provider opposed on moral grounds does not have to participate. "
" The request must be confirmed by two witnesses, one of whom cannot be related to the patient, be entitled to any portion of the patient's estate, be the patient's physician, or be employed by a health care facility caring for the patient. After the request is made, another physician must examine the patient's medical records and confirm the diagnosis. The patient must be determined to not suffer from a mental condition impairing judgement. If the request is authorized, the patient must wait at least fifteen days and make a second oral request before the prescription may be written. The patient has a right to rescind the request at any time. Should either physician have concerns about the patient’s ability to make an informed decision, or feel the patient’s request may be motivated by depression or coercion, the patient must be referred for a psychological evaluation. "
" The law protects doctors from liability for providing a lethal prescription for a terminally ill, competent adult in compliance with the statute restrictions. Participation by physicians, pharmacists, and health care providers is voluntary. The law also specifies a patient's decision to end his or her life shall not "have an effect upon a life, health, or accident insurance or annuity. "
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The nature of this law is inescapable to a lot of argument as it defies certain moral standards in our society. We were brought up knowing that suicide in all forms or ways is basically unacceptable, but for people who are ill and suffering, think of it as a deliverance from all the pain.
I understand why some people would like to end everything because death can sometimes be convenient. But in my opinion, a lot of things can happen in those 6 months so I do not agree a hundred percent. Having 3 months to live is a rather different case and I think it's the most appropriate time if a patient wishes to undergo this certain procedure. By this time, the patient may be experiencing the greatest pain and suffering.
Experiencing someone very close to my heart taken away by sudden death is unbearable. Like what I used to say, I can give up everything to have my father's life 'extended' for one more day and be with us. I'm sure, people who are close to the patient feel the same way so why cut everything short?
I'm not in the position to judge a person whether this is acceptable or not for I didn't experience the pain they're going through. But isn't knowing you're still gonna see the faces of your loved ones, talk to them, and touch their hands worth living even just for a little bit longer?
I searched Wiki for a narrative description about this law to give a better insight, and so it says:
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" Under the law, a capable adult who has been diagnosed by a physician with a terminal illness that will kill them within six months may request in writing, from his or her physician, a prescription for a lethal dose of medication for the purpose of ending the patient's life. Use of the law is voluntary and the patient must initiate the request. Any physician, pharmacist or healthcare provider opposed on moral grounds does not have to participate. "
" The request must be confirmed by two witnesses, one of whom cannot be related to the patient, be entitled to any portion of the patient's estate, be the patient's physician, or be employed by a health care facility caring for the patient. After the request is made, another physician must examine the patient's medical records and confirm the diagnosis. The patient must be determined to not suffer from a mental condition impairing judgement. If the request is authorized, the patient must wait at least fifteen days and make a second oral request before the prescription may be written. The patient has a right to rescind the request at any time. Should either physician have concerns about the patient’s ability to make an informed decision, or feel the patient’s request may be motivated by depression or coercion, the patient must be referred for a psychological evaluation. "
" The law protects doctors from liability for providing a lethal prescription for a terminally ill, competent adult in compliance with the statute restrictions. Participation by physicians, pharmacists, and health care providers is voluntary. The law also specifies a patient's decision to end his or her life shall not "have an effect upon a life, health, or accident insurance or annuity. "
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The nature of this law is inescapable to a lot of argument as it defies certain moral standards in our society. We were brought up knowing that suicide in all forms or ways is basically unacceptable, but for people who are ill and suffering, think of it as a deliverance from all the pain.
I understand why some people would like to end everything because death can sometimes be convenient. But in my opinion, a lot of things can happen in those 6 months so I do not agree a hundred percent. Having 3 months to live is a rather different case and I think it's the most appropriate time if a patient wishes to undergo this certain procedure. By this time, the patient may be experiencing the greatest pain and suffering.
Experiencing someone very close to my heart taken away by sudden death is unbearable. Like what I used to say, I can give up everything to have my father's life 'extended' for one more day and be with us. I'm sure, people who are close to the patient feel the same way so why cut everything short?
I'm not in the position to judge a person whether this is acceptable or not for I didn't experience the pain they're going through. But isn't knowing you're still gonna see the faces of your loved ones, talk to them, and touch their hands worth living even just for a little bit longer?
The Peel
So I recently had derma peel for my face to get rid of those annoying dead skin cells. Little did I know, that it would create a great deal of discomfort while I'm hitting the gym and getting all sweaty. I didn't have any problem with it right after the procedure, problem arises when I'm working out. It still feels kinda raw so when it gets in contact with perspiration, I feel a certain kind of sting all over my face. And since I love going to the sauna every so often, the discomfort gets even worse! I tried washing my face with ice cold water to help lessen the redness and soreness and it helped a little. But the weather is so hot and humid that sweating (my biggest pet peeve!) is inevitable. How I wish I could just stay in a cold room with AC in full blast the whole day...
Notions on leaving and holidays...
I'm leaving in 2 weeks to spend the winter season in Korea, but I'm yet to purchase my tickets cause I'm still waiting for the dollars to drop again. I thought there will be a significant change on the foreign exchange right after Obama was elected, guess I was wrong. I'm not sure what to expect, except that it'll be a nice relief from the scorching, blazing, draining, and excruciating heat of Manila.
Hm.. This will be the third time I'm spending the Christmas season in Korea. It makes me sad a little that I wont be here for that special occassion. I surely missed noche buena and everything that has to do with Christmas cause spending Christmas Eve in Korea is boring... Spending New Years Eve in Korea is even more boring if you're not going to Jongro to hear the ringing of the bell. I don't know what's the significance of that but going there looks fun on TV cause there are so many entertainers performing while thousands of people are gathered, watching nearby. At the stroke of midnight, they'll bang the huge bell for reasons God only knows. Then there'll be fireworks display and that's it. Time to go back home... tired, sleepy, hungry. In any case, I would rather spend the New Years eve beside the bell than spend it beside the computer.
Hm.. This will be the third time I'm spending the Christmas season in Korea. It makes me sad a little that I wont be here for that special occassion. I surely missed noche buena and everything that has to do with Christmas cause spending Christmas Eve in Korea is boring... Spending New Years Eve in Korea is even more boring if you're not going to Jongro to hear the ringing of the bell. I don't know what's the significance of that but going there looks fun on TV cause there are so many entertainers performing while thousands of people are gathered, watching nearby. At the stroke of midnight, they'll bang the huge bell for reasons God only knows. Then there'll be fireworks display and that's it. Time to go back home... tired, sleepy, hungry. In any case, I would rather spend the New Years eve beside the bell than spend it beside the computer.
11.13.2008
Red Hot Room
After a good workout, I just love going to the red-hot room where it reaches 57 degrees! I'm sure by now, you guys know what I'm talking about. The first time I tried it was at Clark Hatch Fitness Center located at the 2nd floor of Dusit Hotel. Sis and I were members there for a year, and we visit the sauna each and every time we were there.
The current gym I'm going to doesn't have a spacious sauna unlike in Clark Hatch... But it's decent enough to accomodate 4 people, maximum of 6. It's nice and quiet so sometimes I can't help but doze off for a few minutes!
Other than breaking a good sweat, what is really going on when we enter the sauna room... here are some facts I read..
* During a 10-20 minute sauna session, your heart rate increases by 50-75%. This provides the same metabolic result as physical exercise. The increased cardiac load is the equivalent of a brisk walk. There is a nominal effect on blood pressure because the heat also causes the blood vessels in skin to expand to accomodate blood flow.
* Blood vessels become more flexible and there is increased circulation to the extremities. During a sauna, blood flow to the skin increases to as high as 50-70% of cardiac output (compared to the standard 5-10%). This brings the nutrients to the subutaneous and surface tissue reulting in glowing healthy skin.
* Steambaths and Sauna induce sweating to provide a comprehensive cleansing of the skin and sweat glands. Skin is the largest organ in the body. 30% of the wastes are passed thru the skin. Profuse sweating enhances the detoxification capacity of the skin y opening pores and flushing impurtities from the body.
* When taking a sauna, skin temperature rises to 40 degrees celsius and internal body temperature rises to about 38 degrees celsius. Exposure to the high heat creates an artificial fever state. Fever is part of the body's natural healing process. Fever simulates the immune sysytem in resulting in increased production of white blood cells, antibodies and interferon (an anti-viral protein) with cancer fighting capability.
* Spas and other such therapeutic facilities utilize saunas and steambaths in conjunction with massage to loosen fatty tissue and sssist in the battle against cellulite.
* Many regular steam and sauna users claim that 'a good sweat' at the onset relieve and ward off the most severe symptoms of cold or flu.
The current gym I'm going to doesn't have a spacious sauna unlike in Clark Hatch... But it's decent enough to accomodate 4 people, maximum of 6. It's nice and quiet so sometimes I can't help but doze off for a few minutes!
Other than breaking a good sweat, what is really going on when we enter the sauna room... here are some facts I read..
* During a 10-20 minute sauna session, your heart rate increases by 50-75%. This provides the same metabolic result as physical exercise. The increased cardiac load is the equivalent of a brisk walk. There is a nominal effect on blood pressure because the heat also causes the blood vessels in skin to expand to accomodate blood flow.
* Blood vessels become more flexible and there is increased circulation to the extremities. During a sauna, blood flow to the skin increases to as high as 50-70% of cardiac output (compared to the standard 5-10%). This brings the nutrients to the subutaneous and surface tissue reulting in glowing healthy skin.
* Steambaths and Sauna induce sweating to provide a comprehensive cleansing of the skin and sweat glands. Skin is the largest organ in the body. 30% of the wastes are passed thru the skin. Profuse sweating enhances the detoxification capacity of the skin y opening pores and flushing impurtities from the body.
* When taking a sauna, skin temperature rises to 40 degrees celsius and internal body temperature rises to about 38 degrees celsius. Exposure to the high heat creates an artificial fever state. Fever is part of the body's natural healing process. Fever simulates the immune sysytem in resulting in increased production of white blood cells, antibodies and interferon (an anti-viral protein) with cancer fighting capability.
* Spas and other such therapeutic facilities utilize saunas and steambaths in conjunction with massage to loosen fatty tissue and sssist in the battle against cellulite.
* Many regular steam and sauna users claim that 'a good sweat' at the onset relieve and ward off the most severe symptoms of cold or flu.
Big Bang Boys
I'm addicted listening to Big Bang. I spent half of the day downloading their songs and watching their music videos and interviews! I even created a special folder just for them which can only mean they're extra special...
I first heard of this group last winter in Korea when a middle school girl I know, kept on asking me "Do you know Big Bang?", and whenever I say no she'll ask "Why-eeee?". She does this everytime we see each other, as if praying I'd finally bump my head and realize that they're the cutest being in the world and 'HOW COULD I NOT KNOW THEM?' I thought there wasn't anything special about this group, just some random Korean boy band who got pretty faces and a little talent paving their way to stardom by wooing middle school and high school girls (their biggest and only market...!). It turns out, I was wrong, so wrong.
I got curious after I first saw them at a New Year Celebration Show on T.V. and they were there to perform together with a lot of popular entertainers. I thought they're super cute and I wanted to see more of them so I started listening to their songs...
I've got a 'gi-normous' crush on G-Dragon (cutie on the left side)! I find him the cutest among the bunch and he's the most talented too. My only complain is that, he tries to be 'cool' too much so he sometimes end up way over-the-top especially with his sense of style. He's got all he needs to be a superstar in his own right and that should be enough. He should stop being "pa-cool" and all that shiz cause it's not workin' (why is it whenever I say 'work' I can't help but think of Tim Gunn.. lol).
The other guy T.O.P (cutie on the right) is familiar to many, cause he did a music video with Sandara Park called 'I'm Sorry'. The said MV didn't excite me and I don't think there's something special about it. My attention just focused on Sandara who is fondly called BOA of the Phil.. It's probably a big honor for Sandy to even be compared to BOA, considering she's super famous in all of Asia and very talented as well. I'm not a fan of BOA but I know how talented she is. That doesn't mean I'm anti-sandy, in fact I kind of like her. And why not? She's a very likeable person. But then again, I remember her song "In or Out" that scarred me for life! There goes the song again, it keeps playing in my head over and over and I just couldn't stop it...
Ok, back to T.O.P., Is it just me or he looks like Edison Chen in this picture? The way I look at this angle, T.O.P. looks very much like the 'hottest-chinese-superstar-no more'. But I have very bad eyesight that needs laser surgery A.S.A.P., so it's probably just me...
If you guys have a few minutes to kill, please check out this link below so you'd understand why I like this group or better yet, G-Dragon so much!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-454puRR3w
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2iRkNS5SkO0&feature=related
11.12.2008
Some random rants about my workout!
So I'm back to the gym and been working out for 2 days! Whew... it wasn't easy as I expected.
Part of the fitness program mentioned by the Instructor is to stop using the elevator, and use the stairs while going up where the gym is located. At first, I thought he's joking cause the place is situated at the top-most floor. But when I realized that he's dead serious, I gasped. It's 15 friggin floors to climb! Even the most physically fit there would break a serious amount sweat to get to the top...
Like any obedient student, I did what I was told to do. I took a deep breath and started to climb. The first 4 floors was a breeze but lactic acid started to build up and it got difficult from there. I was gasping hard for air on the 7th and 8th floor and had to stop on the 10th cause I feel like I'm about to have a heart attack. I took the elevator from there, then finally showed my tired and sweaty face in the room.
I was already exhausted even before I stepped on the treadmill. What drained me more is the Iranian guy beside me who has some serious odor issue going on that made breathing thru my nose almost impossible! He smelled like duped socks mixed with rotten fruits and fresh chilis on the side. I don't have anything against Iranians for that matter, it's just that this person's case is 'unique'.
After a long and excruciating 15 minutes, I took a shower then moved to the sauna room. I accidentally slept there for a little less than 10 minutes while the temperature is at 57 degrees!
I was so tired when I got out of the building... so tired that I can barely move my legs so it took me 15 minutes to walk home instead of the usual 8.
Part of the fitness program mentioned by the Instructor is to stop using the elevator, and use the stairs while going up where the gym is located. At first, I thought he's joking cause the place is situated at the top-most floor. But when I realized that he's dead serious, I gasped. It's 15 friggin floors to climb! Even the most physically fit there would break a serious amount sweat to get to the top...
Like any obedient student, I did what I was told to do. I took a deep breath and started to climb. The first 4 floors was a breeze but lactic acid started to build up and it got difficult from there. I was gasping hard for air on the 7th and 8th floor and had to stop on the 10th cause I feel like I'm about to have a heart attack. I took the elevator from there, then finally showed my tired and sweaty face in the room.
I was already exhausted even before I stepped on the treadmill. What drained me more is the Iranian guy beside me who has some serious odor issue going on that made breathing thru my nose almost impossible! He smelled like duped socks mixed with rotten fruits and fresh chilis on the side. I don't have anything against Iranians for that matter, it's just that this person's case is 'unique'.
After a long and excruciating 15 minutes, I took a shower then moved to the sauna room. I accidentally slept there for a little less than 10 minutes while the temperature is at 57 degrees!
I was so tired when I got out of the building... so tired that I can barely move my legs so it took me 15 minutes to walk home instead of the usual 8.
"From where you are" by Lifehouse
I feel inspired to write about a particular song "From where you are" sung by one of my favorite band, Lifehouse.
In my previous post dated 11.1.08, I wrote about 'Soundtrack of my life'. This post is all about the songs I would like to play if I ever make a movie about my life. I included the song "From where you are" for the nostalgic scene.
You know how a song reminds you of someone or something, and you feel a special kind of feeling just by listening to it? This song means a lot to me, as it clearly expresses my 'longing-ness' for my father who died last year and I'm feeling all sort of emotion whenever I hear it. Let the lyrics explain how I feel deep inside....
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
This song is currently on repeat mode and I don't know how long till I get tired of listening to it.
In my previous post dated 11.1.08, I wrote about 'Soundtrack of my life'. This post is all about the songs I would like to play if I ever make a movie about my life. I included the song "From where you are" for the nostalgic scene.
You know how a song reminds you of someone or something, and you feel a special kind of feeling just by listening to it? This song means a lot to me, as it clearly expresses my 'longing-ness' for my father who died last year and I'm feeling all sort of emotion whenever I hear it. Let the lyrics explain how I feel deep inside....
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
This song is currently on repeat mode and I don't know how long till I get tired of listening to it.
All about Tofu
I just finished eating taho (silken tofu) for 'merienda'. It was really good! I haven't eaten taho for the longest time so I forgot how good it actually tasted.
While eating, it sort of reminded me of sundubu chigae which happens to be one of my favorite korean dish. I miss eating my korean comfort food!
I'm big on tofu, be it soft, hard, boiled or fried. But in filipino cuisine, I only have a few number of tofu dishes to try. I'm now thinking of ways to incorporate tofu in our everyday dishes. Not only is it delicious but there are numerous health benefits that goes beyond the taste!
11.11.2008
Gym woes
It's official, I'm going back to the gym today after a long vacation! I just got off the phone with the front desk officer and renewed my membership for another month. No if's, no but's, no qualms...
My target is to lose 20 lbs. It's what I gained for the last 2 years. Slowly but surely, I'm losing weight but 20 lbs seems like a long and painful journey ahead...
I've already given up fastfood and I don't eat chocolates that often anymore. I switched to low-fat milk and I'm eating my good ol' breakfast like what my mom always say. I just need to make a habit of eating fruits and vegetables.
Now that I'm going back to the gym, I'm worried about experiencing those terrible, terrible muscle aches again. At one point before, I couldn't lift a shampoo bottle from the floor cause my arms hurt so much. I also didn't dare to laugh cause my abdominal muscles are strained as well. The worst part of it all is getting up in the morning feeling sore all-over!
But for my well-being, it's worth it. If it guarantees I'd live longer, then bring it on (I sounded like a 'tough-ie' when I said that!).
I just can't help but feel envious to those people who don't need a workout all their life. A good example is my mom... she can eat anything she wants and not gain a single weight! But that is just not my case
My target is to lose 20 lbs. It's what I gained for the last 2 years. Slowly but surely, I'm losing weight but 20 lbs seems like a long and painful journey ahead...
I've already given up fastfood and I don't eat chocolates that often anymore. I switched to low-fat milk and I'm eating my good ol' breakfast like what my mom always say. I just need to make a habit of eating fruits and vegetables.
Now that I'm going back to the gym, I'm worried about experiencing those terrible, terrible muscle aches again. At one point before, I couldn't lift a shampoo bottle from the floor cause my arms hurt so much. I also didn't dare to laugh cause my abdominal muscles are strained as well. The worst part of it all is getting up in the morning feeling sore all-over!
But for my well-being, it's worth it. If it guarantees I'd live longer, then bring it on (I sounded like a 'tough-ie' when I said that!).
I just can't help but feel envious to those people who don't need a workout all their life. A good example is my mom... she can eat anything she wants and not gain a single weight! But that is just not my case
Analyzing 'Labels'
Everywhere we turn we see, eat, wear and live with labels. We have our favorite "brands" in foods, clothes, and even personal titles.
What is in a label name? Does it mean cost, prestige, quality, personal preference or is it even related to how we feel not only about ourselves but also others around us? If we purchase branded clothes do they make us look better, feel better or just cost more? Do others look at us and say they are wearing really expensive clothes they must have a lot of money? Maybe think that we are too good to associate with or on the other end of the spectrum, not good enough. If we eat off-brand food does that mean we are cheap, poor or just frugal?
In our personal lives and relationships labels abound like family, friends, aquaintances, associates and co-workers. If we tighten the circle in to those very close to us we may have the "oldest", "middle" or "baby" in the family, the "spoiled brat" or the "lost" soul. We may have a "husband/wife", "girlfriend/"boyfriend","significant other"/"partner" or "best friend".
Do these "personal" labels show the level of commitment or importance to our family, friends or "loved ones"? Or are they just useless letters used to form a word that shows no significance whatsoever? Would it make a difference in how you feel? Would it make a difference in how others would feel, treat or look at you? Would it matter at all? Or bigger question yet, should it?
What is in a label name? Does it mean cost, prestige, quality, personal preference or is it even related to how we feel not only about ourselves but also others around us? If we purchase branded clothes do they make us look better, feel better or just cost more? Do others look at us and say they are wearing really expensive clothes they must have a lot of money? Maybe think that we are too good to associate with or on the other end of the spectrum, not good enough. If we eat off-brand food does that mean we are cheap, poor or just frugal?
In our personal lives and relationships labels abound like family, friends, aquaintances, associates and co-workers. If we tighten the circle in to those very close to us we may have the "oldest", "middle" or "baby" in the family, the "spoiled brat" or the "lost" soul. We may have a "husband/wife", "girlfriend/"boyfriend","significant other"/"partner" or "best friend".
Do these "personal" labels show the level of commitment or importance to our family, friends or "loved ones"? Or are they just useless letters used to form a word that shows no significance whatsoever? Would it make a difference in how you feel? Would it make a difference in how others would feel, treat or look at you? Would it matter at all? Or bigger question yet, should it?
11.10.2008
Sad news
I heard a sad news today about a person I know and hated so much before, stricken with cancer. I got into a little fight with him about 6 years ago. The reason was petty, just blown out of proportion by his gossip-lovin gf. Too many things happened with those 6 long years and I finally found a place in my heart to forgive them for all the bad things they brought me.
He's already in stage 4 and currently in palliative care in a big hospital in Manila. A person I knew visited him today. He has gotten so much worse from the last time he visited our house a few months ago, I was told. But he's really optimistic and is so looking forward to having his operation in a few weeks. He thinks, 3 days after the operation, he can be discharged from the hospital.
I only know some things about the big C, my grandfather succumbed to this deadly disease when I was young and stage 4 means his cancer already metastasized and his time is almost up.
But God is Good. He's a great healer, and miracles await to those who have strong faith in him. And if death is really His will, then we should accept it whole-heartedly and be thankful for the life he has given us. One of the things I learned when my father died last year, is that death isn't such a bad thing. God has given my father a complete cure and rest from his illness that debilitated him for a long time. It's sad that I wont be seeing him for the rest of my life however, he was granted eternal peace and is now in a much better place not aching and suffering from any illness.
I salute my old friend for being optimistic and still not losing hope inspite of all the pain. In my heart, I sincerely wish he will get better but if it's not the case, I wish he'd have a little more time to spend with his children because they are going to miss him when he's gone.
Things like this reminds me that we are not immortal and we are liable as to how we will spend our lifetime. "Make each day count" is now an adage I'm trying to live by...
He's already in stage 4 and currently in palliative care in a big hospital in Manila. A person I knew visited him today. He has gotten so much worse from the last time he visited our house a few months ago, I was told. But he's really optimistic and is so looking forward to having his operation in a few weeks. He thinks, 3 days after the operation, he can be discharged from the hospital.
I only know some things about the big C, my grandfather succumbed to this deadly disease when I was young and stage 4 means his cancer already metastasized and his time is almost up.
But God is Good. He's a great healer, and miracles await to those who have strong faith in him. And if death is really His will, then we should accept it whole-heartedly and be thankful for the life he has given us. One of the things I learned when my father died last year, is that death isn't such a bad thing. God has given my father a complete cure and rest from his illness that debilitated him for a long time. It's sad that I wont be seeing him for the rest of my life however, he was granted eternal peace and is now in a much better place not aching and suffering from any illness.
I salute my old friend for being optimistic and still not losing hope inspite of all the pain. In my heart, I sincerely wish he will get better but if it's not the case, I wish he'd have a little more time to spend with his children because they are going to miss him when he's gone.
Things like this reminds me that we are not immortal and we are liable as to how we will spend our lifetime. "Make each day count" is now an adage I'm trying to live by...
Spillin' my guts survey
If I looked on the bed next to you, what would I find?
* Foot lotion... I have a habit of putting lotion to my feet before I sleep.
Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?
* I usually close it.
Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawer or just thrown in?
* I fold them nice and neat!
Sleep on your back or stomach?
* On my stomach... but I move a lot so probably both.
Are you a cuddler?
* Yeah, sometimes when I'm feeling all mushy.
What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
* Some old hair bands to tie my hair, I tend to loose them under the bed.
Something that happened today that made you angry?
* none... it's all calm and mellow today.
What were you doing before this survey?
* Writing a different blog entry..
What will you do after the survey?
* Surf the net some more..
Marriage or living together?
* Marriage
What shirt are you wearing now?
* A pink shirt with some korean letters printed on them..
Do you sing?
* A lot. I'm not blessed with a good voice but I'm oozing with guts! hehe
Do you de-label your beer bottles?
* I think I only did it once when I was drunk...
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
* I hide them most of the time
Is there something you regret and wish you could take back?
* Time... for wasting it with useless people who hurt me in the past (sounds so bitter!)
First thing you do when you wake up?
* Go to the bathroom
Ever had surgery?
* My knee..
Last argument you got into with?
* With sis
Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
* No
What's one good thing about your best friend?
* Can't say only one... there's a lot!
How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
* A long time! Arrgh
Current song your listening?
* T.I. Bounce like this
When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
* Yes..
What is the current advertisement on the side of the screen?
* None
What are you looking forward to in the next few weeks?
* Going to Korea
It's midnight. Who are you texting?
* Probably my friends who work in a call center
It's Wednesday afternoon, where are you usually?
* Nothing particular
Honestly, if you could have ANYONE in the world, who would it be?
* BF of Miley Cyrus.. haha!
You're going to New York for school shopping, where do you go first?
* Provided I'm rich to school shop in NY.. I'd go to Macy's, Barney's or Bloomingdale's.
How do you feel about your hair?
* Not satisfied.
If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
* Paris, France or Upper East Side N.Y.
How much do looks matter to you in a guy?
* A lot, it's the first thing that catches our attention to see the other things.
What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
* None, it's a slow day.
How many TRUE best friends do you have?
* About 2.
What would you change about your life right now?
* Not much.. although I'm not perfectly fine with it, I just couldn't ask for more.
What’s the best feeling in the world?
* When you're heard and appreciated.
* Foot lotion... I have a habit of putting lotion to my feet before I sleep.
Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?
* I usually close it.
Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawer or just thrown in?
* I fold them nice and neat!
Sleep on your back or stomach?
* On my stomach... but I move a lot so probably both.
Are you a cuddler?
* Yeah, sometimes when I'm feeling all mushy.
What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
* Some old hair bands to tie my hair, I tend to loose them under the bed.
Something that happened today that made you angry?
* none... it's all calm and mellow today.
What were you doing before this survey?
* Writing a different blog entry..
What will you do after the survey?
* Surf the net some more..
Marriage or living together?
* Marriage
What shirt are you wearing now?
* A pink shirt with some korean letters printed on them..
Do you sing?
* A lot. I'm not blessed with a good voice but I'm oozing with guts! hehe
Do you de-label your beer bottles?
* I think I only did it once when I was drunk...
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
* I hide them most of the time
Is there something you regret and wish you could take back?
* Time... for wasting it with useless people who hurt me in the past (sounds so bitter!)
First thing you do when you wake up?
* Go to the bathroom
Ever had surgery?
* My knee..
Last argument you got into with?
* With sis
Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
* No
What's one good thing about your best friend?
* Can't say only one... there's a lot!
How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
* A long time! Arrgh
Current song your listening?
* T.I. Bounce like this
When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
* Yes..
What is the current advertisement on the side of the screen?
* None
What are you looking forward to in the next few weeks?
* Going to Korea
It's midnight. Who are you texting?
* Probably my friends who work in a call center
It's Wednesday afternoon, where are you usually?
* Nothing particular
Honestly, if you could have ANYONE in the world, who would it be?
* BF of Miley Cyrus.. haha!
You're going to New York for school shopping, where do you go first?
* Provided I'm rich to school shop in NY.. I'd go to Macy's, Barney's or Bloomingdale's.
How do you feel about your hair?
* Not satisfied.
If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
* Paris, France or Upper East Side N.Y.
How much do looks matter to you in a guy?
* A lot, it's the first thing that catches our attention to see the other things.
What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
* None, it's a slow day.
How many TRUE best friends do you have?
* About 2.
What would you change about your life right now?
* Not much.. although I'm not perfectly fine with it, I just couldn't ask for more.
What’s the best feeling in the world?
* When you're heard and appreciated.
Under the weather
The weather is awful today, rain is so strong that it's impossible to get out. I dread the thunders that keeps getting stronger and stronger.
I need to get out, I feel cramped and suffocated. I wanna do something else besides staring infront of the computer and lying in my bed. Who knew taking too much rest can be tiring as well.
I'm fighting this urge to get my jacket and go out. My mom is going to be hysterical if I go out in a weather like this. Besides, the traffic is so bad right now, I might just get stuck in the middle of nowhere. I'm just feeling 'melancholic' that's all and wanna be some place quiet to jog. Yes, I like jogging while I'm in deep thought.
Or should I just head out to a quiet coffee shop nearby? But I know people have issues about being alone. Like if I enter a place without a book or a laptop and just stay there for a while, people stare, they start to gossip. I remember a scene from Sex and the City and SJP is talking about books being an armor whenever she's out and not with her friends. In my case, I hate reading outside the premises of home. I have a very short attention span when it comes to reading books (but I love reading them!) so I need to be confined in my room to be able to do so because people roaming around, chatting about their new conquest, or just plain bad-mouthing someone absent is just too distracting for me. Tinkering with laptops while drinking coffee sounds more acceptable. I can spend the whole day in front of the computer regardless whether there are people roaming around or not. But I'm not a busy person, nor do I have a project which needs to be finished. I don't have any reason to do stuff with computers outside, got plenty of time to waste at home.. It's just plain wrong. But then again, it's my business so who cares if I do so?
Good thing I'm meeting my friends tomorrow. I just hope the skies will be clearer by then.
I need to get out, I feel cramped and suffocated. I wanna do something else besides staring infront of the computer and lying in my bed. Who knew taking too much rest can be tiring as well.
I'm fighting this urge to get my jacket and go out. My mom is going to be hysterical if I go out in a weather like this. Besides, the traffic is so bad right now, I might just get stuck in the middle of nowhere. I'm just feeling 'melancholic' that's all and wanna be some place quiet to jog. Yes, I like jogging while I'm in deep thought.
Or should I just head out to a quiet coffee shop nearby? But I know people have issues about being alone. Like if I enter a place without a book or a laptop and just stay there for a while, people stare, they start to gossip. I remember a scene from Sex and the City and SJP is talking about books being an armor whenever she's out and not with her friends. In my case, I hate reading outside the premises of home. I have a very short attention span when it comes to reading books (but I love reading them!) so I need to be confined in my room to be able to do so because people roaming around, chatting about their new conquest, or just plain bad-mouthing someone absent is just too distracting for me. Tinkering with laptops while drinking coffee sounds more acceptable. I can spend the whole day in front of the computer regardless whether there are people roaming around or not. But I'm not a busy person, nor do I have a project which needs to be finished. I don't have any reason to do stuff with computers outside, got plenty of time to waste at home.. It's just plain wrong. But then again, it's my business so who cares if I do so?
Good thing I'm meeting my friends tomorrow. I just hope the skies will be clearer by then.
11.09.2008
I'm sorry
aghast with a memory
i tumbled from your side
pointed a finger of doubt
for some mistaken thought
how much you loved me
understood each childish act
no one ever stood afront
keeping me in his heart
i am sorry for again
if i may say the least
for making your heart bleed
im sorry my love.....
i tumbled from your side
pointed a finger of doubt
for some mistaken thought
how much you loved me
understood each childish act
no one ever stood afront
keeping me in his heart
i am sorry for again
if i may say the least
for making your heart bleed
im sorry my love.....
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